Posted 8/3/2002 03:05:44 AM
if i were listening to an mp3 right now it would be:
sarah.m.elsewhere

Posted 8/3/2002 02:57:26 AM
spario has been set free.
it was an act of maturity and love.
i think it is the first time a pet of ayesha's has not died in captivity.

Posted 8/3/2002 02:31:42 AM

I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!

could not sleep.... so...
i just caught Zoolander for the first time.
wow. hilarious.
i watched all the outtakes and extended scenes.
this is right up there with Happy Gilmore.

You can read minds?

Posted 8/2/2002 07:58:38 PM
...No!
Come back!
With all your tortures!
All my tears run
Their course to you
And the last flame of my heart
Glows upward to you.
O Come back,
My unknown god! My pain!
My last happiness!

"Lament of Ariandre"
F.Nietzche

Posted 8/2/2002 03:15:16 PM
i've been asked by not a few people why it is that i seem fixated on the source of structures, the emergence and evolution of thought movements, the spiritual eroticism that inhabits the human being. one such questioner was incredulous at my verbal posture as if somehow my words and motivations were unnecessarily complex and situationally arrogant. my response is always rather simple. i don't think for anyone's pet constituency. i don't carry a banner of revolution for any particular messianism. i speak out of the stories within which i find myself for a community that, due to my trans-cultural mongrel upbringing, is a bit more diverse than many are comfortable with.

in language that is perhaps less obtuse all the while pregnant with an ambiguity far more profound: it is all about the other kingdom.

Posted 8/2/2002 01:08:52 PM
current mp3:
SP.galapagos

Posted 8/2/2002 12:46:16 PM
in 1995 i took a sabbatical. i lived on the border of pakistan and afghanistan for about six months. i grew my beard. i listened. i prayed. i journaled.

i came across these journals in my move to dallas last year. they reopened for me a vista of past experience that is always lurking just below the surface of conversation but seldom made explicit even to my acting self.

i will be sharing pieces of this spiritual journey in this journal as i am moved.

::from the peshawar journals::

"...the madness was very near, as i believe it would be near the man who could see things through the veils at once of two customs, two cultures, two environments."
-T.E. Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom

oral culture is the undeconstructable (though tenuous) basis of textuality. oral, communal narrative forms the space for the generation of texts, which deconstruct each other, yet are unable to fully deconstruct the story within which they were formed. (22.12.95)

Posted 8/2/2002 12:29:55 PM
what is it to believe?

Posted 8/2/2002 12:28:01 PM
our accelerated social pace and the rate of technical innovation have recalibrated our value criteria such that questions like, "is it priceless?" are displaced by questions in the ilk of, "is it useful?"

yet, paradoxically, i find this very family of questions only periodically useful.

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perhaps that isn't paradox. prehaps that just makes my point.
and perhaps it has nothing to do with acceleration.
perhaps it is simply something like a non-philosophic pragmatism that haunts human decision.

Posted 8/2/2002 08:30:00 AM